It's only Life

going to school today just made my day. although having 3 hrs of sleep killed me off during the first period, everything was just great. i hate plants! haha random i know. it's just because their cells are soooo weird..parenchyma, collenchyma..mesophyll..hate memorizing those names. as you would've guessed, yes we learnt about the transport system in plants during bio today. bummer. kinda happy i scored 44/50 for bio paper 1! whee...achievement! although i am pretty sure my paper 2 and 3 will pull me down..but for now..i'll just brag while i can ;) fyi, joyce has always been one of the lowest for bio be it paper 1, 2 or 3. so highest this time can throw anyone off their seats.

quite disappointed with my history marks although it was really expected already. just tht no one wanted to trust me when i said that i seriously screwed my essays up. now everything's proven! sigh..nothing to be proud of. scored a pathetic 68%. besides that, everything else was alrite, BM class was full of nonsense. like more than usual. just imagine.

ms tye's in penang..hope she's doing alright. everyone's been asking about my grandfather. truth is..he's alrite but not REALLy alrite at the same time. being 94, you can't say he is perfectly okay..you get wht i mean? anytime, anything can just happen. all i can do is hope for it to not happen so soon. funerals suck. everyone just tears apart and you hear cries of crunched-hearted people. it really is something to NOT look forward to at all times.

few days ago, silly joyce thought she had killed her ipod due to computer corruption. but today..she found out it was actually low on battery power!! pfft. i need sleep. toodles! :)

Life's as dull as it ever could get. Everyday is just a brand new day with nothing to look forward to, but at the same time, glad that God has given me another day to indulge in the wonders of life...which by the way isn't very great rite now.

I'm so tired of people saying things but contradicting the things they say through how they act. It's just REALLY frustrating. One minute they can be all happy and the next thing you know they're all moody-fied. Just trying to understand the feelings of one soul is already a burden..try imagining ten other souls? You try to make everyone happy but everything you do just doesn't seem enough. Everything falls apart but no one seems to care to piece them back. They say your smile makes them happy but do they mean it? They say it, but somehow their body language simply don't portray it. Talk about lies..sometimes it's just best to let it all go and not think about it. As they say, life's a one way journey, so never turn back. Everything is easier said than done.

You try your best to please them in every way that you are capable of..but is anything changing for the better? Is ignorance all there is to be blamed? Each and every day, you try to figure things out, hoping to find a solution. But if they just sit there and wait for you to patch things, nothing changes. Nothing does and nothing will. They know that it takes two to tango but they can't help but be ignorant. Perhaps you are thinking too much but that's because you care.

After all that has been said, you are drowning deeper and deeper into the water, though you r still hanging on because you have faith that one day, by some miracle, things would be back to the way they were.