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Wednesday, February 15, 2006

few days back i was feeling good, happy and not too overworked. today however i feel like shit. or rather a whole lot of shit fell upon me. perhaps if i was ignorant i wouldn't be feeling this way. but i just can't take it. i feel betrayed cause someone backstabbed me. worse, i've been lied to after that. and after all this years you're supposed to be my friend for god's sake!

if you think i'm not responsible, tell it to my face. you don't have to go round talking bout it alrite? and when i've found out bout wht u said..pls don't come tell me tht it was only a coverup. i'm nobody's fool. it only hurts more if you do that..well at least tht's wht normal ppl would feel. perhaps you're too insensitive to think about me. suit yourself. as i said, come tell it to me if you feel tht i'm being irresponsible..we're matured ppl and we know how to change. but if you don't tell me in wht way i wouldn't know. secondly..if you STILL think i'm not good enough for you...don't ask me to do anything for you k? i'm sure you're smart enough to find someone else to do ur job for you. after all, i would be better off without you.


shit happens. you take it and then leave it. i knoe tht. and i hate it. just hate the fact tht you were suppose to be my good friend. you disappoint me. because of you, my whole day has been ruined. i have absolutely zero mood to do anything, be it studying..nor wtv else. i don't even know why i care..but i do. for obvious reasons..you're suppose to be my FRIEND! goddamit. screw it, screw everything and most of all screw you. i hope you're happy now. whereas i, would be burying myself under pillows tonight. i couldn't thank you enough

Tuesday, February 07, 2006

hello!! its been so long. i had an amazing CNY with wonderful cousins of mine. we went South then all the way North and everything was just GREAT. everything fell right into place. every moment just full of fun and joy.

for now though, life just isn't working out too well. i have SOOO much work piled up in front of me but yet i can't bear the thought of not blogging about how stressed and screwed i really feel right now. i need time and space..i can hardly breathe! would everything just leave my mind?? first of all...exam's been brought forward like seriously seriously early this yr. it's called MID SEMESTER EXAMINATIONS so wht the heck is it doing in FEBRUARY??? we had BARELY started the semester and they just had to reschedule the exam...like wtf.. thats in two week's time!! PLUS we haven't been told wht to study. all this just because of some swimming competition tht the school wants students to take part in. Sports before academics?? Marvellous. great job. go on doing wht u do best

secondly..taking part in the MSSKL squash competition which is next tuesday just makes eveything worse. doesn't help at all. tht would mean missing classes right before exams..everything is so chaotic rite now! i feel as though i'm in this big mess trying to untangle myself from all the strings attached but here i am feeling as helpless as ever. i have to say it's my own fault i got into this mess...why did i choose to take part in all these? i feel like backing out but unfortch i'm the captain. a lousy one i must say...i haven't had any practices for the competition...there's seriously no spare time at all! so sorry. and i've been sleeping past 1 everynite. GOD.. everything is so not right at this moment. it's so sickening!! i feel like burying myself in a hole so that i could be left alone and do my own stuff. but nooo...everything's been decided and all i have to do is follow through..*sigh*

i know you're muttering that i should manage my time. easier said than done! well instead of wasting more time, i shall be good and do some work. have to learn to pick up the pace and stop procrastinating cause no matter what in the end it all falls down to the question of who's to be blamed. what's your say? me of course :(

*picking up the pieces..*