In My Shoes

2009-05-24T17:48:00.000-07:00

FINALLY!

somedays you just sit and wonder..where did time go? everything happens so quickly..and before i know it, i have already completed my first year of uni. the killer exams seemed so distant like as if it has become history. call me strange but when in london, i feel as if all my yesterdays seem like a week ago. sometimes i even feel as though my life is progressing before me, everything happens so quickly that i have no time to process what is going on but just live on. it's weird but it happens. perhaps there is just too many things to do in london..and that is what makes me feel so fortunate. to be in one of the busiest cities in the world where boredom is never an issue.

exams were alright. some were bad..some good..some just hard to say. i'm soooooooo glad that it's all over except that i wish i could redo my econs paper again =S the only paper that counts for my degree in the first yr and yet, i felt like i had brain jam :( all i can do now is just pray for the best.

the post-exam period can never be better! i love how it feels to be so free. okay just a short update. i'm off to watch desperate housewives :)

2009-04-05T17:14:00.000-07:00

EXHAUSTED

the frustration is beyond words. 23 more days till exam. and i'm not even close to being done with studying. truth is, there is no way to finish studying 8 modules in just a month! *sigh* why do they even do this to us? i just feel like disappearing sometimes, hiding away and live the life of a fairytale (as u can tell, i've gone a bit cuckoo) and my new addiction is killing me. my fire is dying out. sometimes i feel like giving up...but i won't! i MUST persevere (but how?)

2009-03-31T11:14:00.000-07:00

YOU'RE MY NEW ADDICTION

i think i've found my new addiction. it's not muller crunch corner, not chicken kobez wrap but baby it's you! i spend everday till midnight with you and i just can't stop feeling guilty when i'm not with you. and this is how it's gonna be the next few weeks. just you and me!

oh library- you're my new best friend :)

do people really learn from mistakes?

2009-03-22T14:05:00.000-07:00

HISTORY REWRITTEN

once again i land my thoughts here. it's the place i come for comfort and to spill my feelings. so..do we really learn from mistakes? or do we just go on doing what we desire without pondering upon the past and the consequences of our actions?

have u ever been in the state of mind where you feel like you don't know who you are? well at least u thought u knew but for that one moment in time you just completely forget about everything u used to know about urself..and how u stick by your principles. it's crazy really..to completely forget and just follow your heart. is it wise to always follow your heart? especially when ur brain says no but ur heart says yes and that u know for sure your brain makes more sense?

i dont know you..but i do.
i'm full of regret..but don't regret it a single bit.
i can't control it..but i can n i refuse to.

there are times you just don't know who you are and feel pretty messed up. n at the same time, u feel like u're flying high with happiness.

2008-11-14T16:10:00.000-08:00

LOVE FROM LONDON

look who's finally back :)

where do i start?? my...it has been 2 months since i step foot in this foreign country and i must say that these 2 months have been the uber hectic 2 months of my life! time just flies so fast that all the yesterdays seems like weeks ago. i have to say my biggest regret is not doing anything for the past three months before i got here.

i still remember the day that i left for london. i had no feeling whatsoever of excitement, neither was i happy nor sad. i was just plain numb. even after i stepped down in london, i still felt numb. n then the days went by, we started going for orientations and i had to admit i was a getting a lil excited meeting new people and listening to the speeches by the university people.

when lectures started however..then came my depression period. i was constantly feeling depressed about my lectures, how they were totally not the way i had expected it to be..and i kept comparing how interested i was in Economics back in college than I am now over here. i remember the pain of sulking everyday, the stress that was constantly bugging me about whether i made the right choice, the depression of not being able to talk to my parents about it because i didn't want to disappoint them, just the bare feeling of not having anyone to REALLY understand my frustration.

i hated everything..i kept wondering whether i would pull through 3 years here. thoughts about whether i was at the right place and whether i should just crawl back to the comfort of home kept creeping into my mind. it was to the extend that i actually considered going back to malaysia to study. this went on for so long...until some time last week, i decided that i had to put a stop on all this. for some reason i felt that i should be thankful and grateful for being where i am now..a world renowned uni that many people may be fighting hard and dying to get in.

what else could i possibly ask for? as Times rank UCL as the 7th best university in the world??? furthermore, i'm living in central London..being in a city that never sleeps? living in a major global city which is one of the world's leading business and financial centres? what have i got to whine about? so what if the lectures are boring or they don't deliver the lectures in a way tht i find easy to understand?? i came to the conclusion that this was MY choice. i have to be responsible for it... it could be the wrong choice but life has to go on and i figured that it is up to me to work hard for the choice i had made for even if it was wrong, it could turn out right.

so there you have it. my 1 month plus worth of frustration all in a nutshell :) sorry if i bored u to death. but really...no words could explain how depressed and frustrated i was with life back then.
and tht explains my MIA from the blogosphere. toodles!

2008-08-28T23:41:00.000-07:00

THE TITLELESS

hello! just a quick update as i've been away from the blogosphere for quite some time now. fyi, i've watched Mirrors! hehe. its a pretty cool show that got my heart jumping a few times. its because when you think theres nothing that is scary about tht part, u might want to think again. before you know it, you'll be gripping on to ur seat and for the faint hearted, maybe screaming. i shall say...the scary clips in the movie is not as predictable as most horror movies so it's a must see! :)

be sure to catch it in cinemas before it creeps out of the box office!

recently, i've been shopping mostly for stuff to bring to london. i'm leaving on September 15th people! that's if i get my visa done on time. i haven't even gotten my confirmation letter yet! apparently other unis use dhl..but ucl uses normal post :( stingy ppl. oh btw for those of you who don't know yet, I'll be doing an Economics degree in UCL (University College London). someone tell me wht to do!! so frustrating. and the admissions officer is not being very helpful either.. n now she's out of her office until 2nd September. how screwed am i????

i've got everything done. now all i need is that letter. sigh. have to start packing my baggage too.
okay that'd be it for today. till then! remember to watch Mirrors! :)

2008-08-14T11:32:00.000-07:00

MIRRORS

i'm tired, i'm sleepy but i can't get anywhere because ultimately i feel so scared!!
WHY? okay let me fill you in. I was booking for movies and then i remembered coming across a movie titled "MIRRORS" in midvalley. thought i would check it out to see whether it's suspenseful as u probably know (or not) that i love watching horror movies! so i went to youtube to check out the trailer

BAD BAD IDEA! considering the time now is 2 in the morning. its been a while since i last watched a horror movie so i guess my tolerance level has severely dropped. what more, it suddenly occured to me that the gates of hell officially opened 2 hours ago (hungry ghost festival!).

i tried to comfort myself by chatting with vee. but look where it got me

[c=48]v v V v v veevee[/c] * 923 * says:
dont worry lar
[c=48]v v V v v veevee[/c] * 923 * says:
if u dont tink bout them
[c=48]v v V v v veevee[/c] * 923 * says:
nothing will happen
Su-Ann says:
and if i do???????
[c=48]v v V v v veevee[/c] * 923 * says:
then nothing will happen too
[c=48]v v V v v veevee[/c] * 923 * says:
lolx
[c=48]v v V v v veevee[/c] * 923 * says:
DONT WORRY LAR JOYCE

-.-
so comforting ain't it?
Now i'm more scared than I was.
thanks vee :)

btw..the trailer is pretty good and the movie seems interesting

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O92QxxgeCO8

i reckon it would be better for you to click it in the morning though!

toodles~

2008-08-10T08:11:00.000-07:00

SATISFACTION IS WHEN HARD WORK PAYS OFF :)

goodbye sleepless nights n cracking headaches. hakuna matata! it means no worries! :)
God is great. Thank you God!

2008-08-09T03:11:00.000-07:00

SLEEPLESS NIGHTS + CRACKING HEADACHES

Results are out tomorrow! Which explains my sleepless nights. I can barely go to sleep without thinking over and over again that my results are gonna be fine. I try to convince myself so that I'll be able to sleep but truth be told I am far beyond believing in myself.

I'm so nervewrecked! I don't wanna disappoint myself, those who have faith in me and most importantly my parents. I hate this feeling. I hate the what if's that is bombarding my mind. I know very well there's nothing that can be done so I try not to think about it but it has it's own ways of creeping into my thoughts. The mind can't help but wonder.

These past days I've been thinking back bout the exams. Despite my serious amnaesia, the horrendous Maths Paper 3 is still fresh in my mind. I sort of gave up during the paper itself! *gasp* and the thing is I need THIS 'A'! In fact I need to ace three papers which includes Maths and Economics. I am SOOOOOOOOOOO in need of a miracle. Oh well.

To all the a level-ians out there, best of luck! and to all a level-ians as well as NON a level-ians, please pray for me? pretty please? =)

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2008-08-07T10:52:00.000-07:00

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an hour ago i was asked a question which inspired this post. this question led to an hour of conversation revolving around the question itself. different opinions were stated n yet there was no conclusion. just a shuffle of arguments and agreements.

i know what is playing in your mind right now. what is the question?? :)
well..it was.."did u have feelings for ****** before?"
it was a simple yes or no question but it left me digging up for old memories..for all the yesterdays. it led my mind to trail down the path of what if's. but it never happened and it never will. or maybe only time will tell.

i thought back. i had this feeling somehow or rather that you did feel for me. at least i thought so. i didn't want to feel proud about it cause i knew right from the start that i would disappoint you. and i wish it hadn't happened. i didn't want to hurt you. i could feel you staring at me from behind and when i looked back you would look away. for a while you made me happy but later on self- conscious as the days went by. on certain days you were exceptionally nice but occasionally we barely uttered 10 sentences. you made me confused. confused about how this would affect our friendship that i treasured. confused about what i should do and what not.

i thought hard. i thought of coming clean. but truth is you never confessed. and 90% of me was glad that you never did..and hoped that you never would. the other remains of me were pondering upon the what if's you actually did. days went by..months even and i decided to pretend to be blind towards the many hints that i gathered some of which i sheepishly admit i was really blind.

tonight after being asked that question, i wonder did i hurt you more when i decided that the right thing to do was to pretend to be blind and ignore the hints or would i hurt you more if i came clean and have a heart to heart talk with you?

i know that the latter would obviously be the better option as i sit and think now. but back then, i just couldn't. i didn't have the courage to do it. what if you denied? what if i was wrong? i didn't want to risk losing the bond we already bridged. i didn't want to feel weird around you. i didn't want us to have to start all over again as a matter of fact. back then it was all about me. i only thought about me n now i realised how hard it might have been for you. in all my pretence. how much did i hurt you?

all i can say is that i truly am sorry. for the hurt i've caused you. for the hurt only u can feel. for the hurt that i can only understand. and for what it's worth, our friendship is one that i will always treasure.

it's been way too long

2008-06-14T09:32:00.001-07:00

yes i didn't fail myself. this is yet another post for 2008.

i realised that a blog is more than a place for you to rant, express your disbeliefs, share ur happy hooha-s with ppl but more importantly a site for u to reminisce about the past. why am i talking bout this?? well certainly because as i was reading my previous posts, it made me step back into the past that i had mostly ridiculously forgotten.

much has changed since my last post. for one, my hair has been pimped! sometimes i really regret for curling it because it really turned out a mess but with proper care it could be very nice. maybe i just don't know how to maintain it :( before i decided to curl it, i did a temporary one to see how i would look like n i really liked it!

looks better than my straight hair rite?? but the permanent one i have now is so totally different *sigh*

so anyway the exams are just over n finally FINALLY i can unbury myself from the piles and piles of books. finally i can breathe. finally i'm freeeeeeeeee! i have been waiting so long for this eventual time to surface n yes its finally here. but tonight i feel as though boredom has took its toll on me and the thought that i would be on a 3 month break suddenly struck me to think of what i should do. should i just bum around or should i loook for a job??

it's kinda hard to believe that in just 3 months time, i'd be leaving for uk if i do get accepted *fingers crossed* this 3 months could pass by quickly or it could passby at snail's speed depending on what i do within this period of time. but right now..i really don't know what i should be doing or wht i shouldn't be doing. god..i need some light! i need directions. i feel so uncertain.

well for now..its 2.03 am n i think i shall head to my bed. niteS! till we meet again.

one last thing,

i miss this lil kiddo!!

look at how adorably cute he was when he was tinier!

MEET SPIDEY BABY!

alright. this is goodbye for real :)

title?

2008-02-02T09:54:00.000-08:00

i suddenly had the sudden urge to blog. to type something in this blog that i haven't visited for more than a year now. a blog that some ppl didn't even know existed...and today i publicised it in my msn :)

the thing is though :

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i DO wanna blog. but i dunno wht about :) so till then! my VERY first n hopefully not last blog post of 2008.
*muackxxx*

who's to say?

2007-04-02T08:16:00.000-07:00

okie months ago i wouldn't even think that i would be back bloggin but anyway here i am!so joyce is in college now.most of the cempakans are taylorians.

so...college is...**EXhausTing**.seriously.i used to think college was more flexible and u'll have more leisure time to entertain urself but apparently not.college is SOOO far from what i expected.it actually is like school..but somehow i really miss high school a whole lot.the ppl..the stuff we do..its just different u know?ppl change..some are still the same but all in all i really do miss high school.in college there's just no time at all.z-e-r-o time.well there is actually but it would mean sacrificing ur supposedly study time :)

as usual my most famous new yr resolution each year still hasn't been resolved.*drum rolls* jeng jeng jeng >>Study consistently.do not struggle last minute to prepare for exams<< lol.okay..i'm being so dramatic..wont take u long to realise i'm actually b-o-r-e-d.i do not actually have time to blog..i have loads of work to do but i rather not look at it.

so anyway..have u ever tried hard to please someone n wondered why u even bother to do so?well i have.n truth is i'm tired.tired of playing these silly games.tired of trying to please u when frankly u look like u don't even care but u act like you do.so why??why do we have to be so childish??playing mind games..trying to make one feel bad when really there is nothing to feel bad about..why?why?why?who's to say right?whether u r right or wrong.i know partly it is my fault..i'm not denying the fact that part of it is..n i'm sorry.but why?i wish that we could just drop it..more like i wish You could drop it..cause i already have..lets move on shall we..lets be grown-ups about it and i'm sure we would be better off

pfft..it's getting late n i should attend to my hw now.yes homework :) nite!

stupid screwed up day

2006-10-19T03:08:00.000-07:00

hey hey..well yes i know my blog has been dead for almost months now..but i just had to relive it today for this one very special person...special in the sense that he is an extremely STRAIGHT and STUPID person. prolly one of the last ones on Earth thank god. i'm not being mean or anything but seriously..have you ever heard about Pak Kaduk? the guy who ended up with nothing in the end because of his stupidity. gosh..if you haven't seen someone similar to Pak Kaduk in reality..then i shall welcome you to Joyce's world whereby you'll realise how stupid ppl could really be.

Sorry for babbling but this is my blog so it gives me every right to babble on and on :) ANYWAY...the first stupidity of this SO VERY SPECIAL PERSON is...well..firstly..he volunteered to photostat some physics papers for a teacher..always helping out the teacher thinking that it's his darn duty. i know it's good and all..but this fella seriously he's a SLAVE for teachers..and he's so darn irritating. You just have to be in my class. I never really hated him until today. Gosh this guy...he simply has NO LIFE

Do i sound like a witch? well i dont care! cause this guy...my god..is unbelievably dumb. so back to the photostating..he took the papers back and used his GODDAMN LASER JET PRINTER to print physics papers for the WHOLE ENTIRE CLASS.like what the hell? if you know u would have no time to photostat it outside..give the job to someone else la?i know maybe he thinks that we really need those papers but can you please use your brains? there's not only ONE solution to every problem you know...so don't come complain to me tht your STUPID LASER JET PRINTER ran out of ink..likE DUH! and i've paid you 12 freaking bucks for the two sets of physics paper which is suppose to cost around 2 bucks the most...just because of your stupidity to use ur LASER JET PRINTER. damn it. so go buy all ur ink back and hope you drown yourself in them! u must be wondering why i'm so stupid to even pay for the papers..honestly...well i don't know i was just feeling sympathetic i guess.

SECONDLY..and the SERIOUS reason why i got SOOOOOOOOOOO ANNOYED is yes...he told on me that i skipped class when i alredi warned him not to. he saw me at the IT and i said "hey..don't tell teacher you saw me k? well..just pretend that you didn't see me at all" truth is..the reason he went to the IT was not even to look for me. it was for some other reason and coincidentally he bumped into me. anyway I WAS DOING MY WORK THERE U IDIOT. anyway..you know wht he answered me? "ermm..i'll try not to. i'll try hard" Frankly...there's no other idiot in this world apart from him. well tht was wht happen yesterday..and TODAY morning..when i was collecting his stupid physics papers...he told me "erm. joyce..i think i have to go tell teacher that you weren't in class yesterday and that you were in the it" and i was like "WHY? Don't k..it's over anyway it was yesterday!" and he said "erm i'll try"

?&!($#*#$@($@#$(@!!!!!!!!!!!! tell me don't u just feel like slapping him if you were me?? firstly it was YESTERDAY alredi..and if teacher didn't say anything..JUST BE IT LA! don't need to go tell her the next day rite u moron. sheesh man...could you name me another idiot apart from this very fella here...geez...and yes...he did tell on me in the end and that's y im so pissed! is that how u repay me after i've been one of those who actually paid for your stupid papers..?? have u no brains? why do you have to be such a big mouth? maybe you want attention but please..that's not the way to earn attention alright? sucker.

anyway if you're wondering wht happened when my teacher called me..hmm..she just asked me this and that..and i was like kinda stoning..and finally she started teaching me how to write an essay instead. wht the hell rite? anyway..tht's not important..the important thing is that i've never seen anyone more stupid in my life before.

ALL THE BEST TO YOU IN LIFE sucker

is going to the Clinic a waste of time and money?

2006-06-14T07:14:00.000-07:00

or maybe just Taman Tun's Family Clinic.

OH MY GOSH the last thing i would want to blog about is getting sick and going to a clinic. but i HAVE to. my visit to the clinic mmhmm..this was how it went

Me : Hi. I came here two days ago cause i had fever and the doctor gave me antibiotics and panadol and my fever has gone down. But today i noticed blisters on my hand, feet and whenever i swallow food it hurts really badly.

*shows blisters on hand and feet to doctor*doctor stares hard at blisters without uttering a single word*except...

Doctor : Hmmmmmm..

*i interrupt*

Me : Umm..maybe doctor, could it be hand, foot and mouth disease? cause i've got it before and the other day the other doctor said i had ulcers in my mouth.

Doctor : Hm. Open your mouth? i'll check on the ulcers.

*looks into my mouth and again "HMMmmm.."

Doctor : yup there are ulcers.

Me : sooo...hand foot and mouth disease?

Doctor : I think so.

*then she starts writing medicine while i'm thinking WHAT THE? IS THAT ALL?????*

so all in all..i was basically MY OWN doctor.i don't even DARE take the pills she gave me...and she provided me some cream to put IN my mouth...argh. i'm so pissed at the doctor! so useless. maybe i should've went back to my normal doctor instead. but the reason exactly why i wanted to come back here is because i came here on monday and got some medicine so i thought it would be best to come back here again considering i got the medicine and all from here. but looks like i was wrong. oh well!! useless doctor..blah. toodles hopefully i'd still be able to live to see the daylight tomorrow :(

another unproductive day

2006-06-05T23:44:00.000-07:00

yet another day passes by like no one's business..and joyce did nothing but hmm..wait! joyce did something! yes she did! Sejarah workbook :) proud..*cheers* okay fine...a whole day just for that? seriously unproductive. sigh...why can't i just sit and study as how i'd sit and stare at the comp for hours searching for nonsense.

anyhooos...my aunt from malacca is here to stay with me for a couple of days. i'm not sure how long though.it's really nice of her. the thing is i hope i'm not boring the nuts out of her.hehe. cause she speaks hokkien..and considering how my bm is even better than my oh-so-perfecto hokkien, *ahem* hehe ya u got the point la. or not? :) ya so anyway..it was quite bad at first..but now i've actually kinda gotten the hang of it. also..some hokkien words which i never knew existed in my brain popped out of my mouth. *clever GIRL!* :)woohoo.

hm..on another note, i'm actually considering putting a countdown to SPM on my blog.haha i dunno wht has gotten into me but i'm kinda in an SPM frenzy. thing is however im not doing anything about it. i just spend my precious time dwelling on how SPM is so near yet so far..blablabla..thinking of studying and poof! time flies..and its time to hit the sack. lights off..comes another day..n yesterday's gone. HOW LA?

rite now i feel extremely happy. not sure why..maybe cause LOST was super interesting :0 hehe. anyways..i shall be back! SAYONARA!! lotsa love *muacks!*

so called holidays

2006-06-03T10:41:00.000-07:00

yo, sup dude? hehe. 1 week of the hols is gone..and all due to extra classes and tuitions! sigh...BIG BIG sigh. and tht also marks that spm is drawing closer and closer by the day. counting from now, there's give and take 20 more weeks to SPM! the horror *gasp* and what is everyone doing? bumming arounD!!! so not right. does anyone not realize how near SPM is?!?!? or on second thought they might be having KSS (Kia Su Syndrome) and are studying quietly in the comfort of their homes for all i know. hehe. oh well..why bother? i should concentrate on myself. i really should start studying for SPM. like SERIOUSLY.ermm tomorrow la :) whee! will blog more tomorrow >< *muacckkz*

2 months in a nutshell :)

2006-06-01T10:21:00.000-07:00

hey hey! i'm back again. after disappearing for soooo many months.yup joyce is back yo! haha so ya. i'm a bit hyper now, so do mind me. well well..so many things have happened for the past few months. gosh..where do i start?? hmm..my birthday?? whee! yep.i shall start from then. so the 28th of April. Joyce and Vincent turned 17! yay! time to get undang and drive!! ahh..can't wait but i'm yet to go for the seminar. been really busy lately. ANYWAYS back to the topic..yes the 28th of April.it was simply perfect amazing brilliant i just couldn't ask for more! seriously i would like to extend my apologies for not thanking all u guys earlier and i do mean EACH and EVERYONE of you for making tht day so very very extraordinarily special! and especially to miss lee yun-ni who came up with the brilliant idea to smash my face into the cake.thank A BUNCH :)this might sound gross but yes a WHOLE LOT of cream went straight up my nose and i had to press it out..eeek.trust me it isn't something you would wanna try. ahah. but anyhoos..it was really a great b'day and i finally got my very own swatch watch! thanks jay son :) and to all you other people who made my day...thanks so so so much

so that was that..wish time could have paused at tht very moment but sadly,no. then there was sports day..games carnival..OH!! seladang won marching!wala!! it was seriously so touching..everyone hugging each other,jumping hysterically up and down..god. memories of tht day are still so fresh in my mind. hm..and then there was handball mssmkl where we got 1st! craziness..still feels like a dream. and then we got to represent Zon Bangsar and got 3rd!eureka!:)

hm then there was exams *terrifying exams* i felt so screwed for bio this time..i had a near death experience just sitting for tht paper..god..never in my life had i felt as if my world was turning upside-down.HOWEVER, there were some better parts of the exam like say...mode maths?? whee..finally got to achieve my ancient maths marks..98%!and there's also history..which i really love my marks but i shall brag no further :)

**fast forward ** today, i went to watch "black night" which is totally rubbish so don't even bother watching it. haha.well i personally didn't like it and think it's a waste of money.its a horror film by the way.but the most scary thing bout the movie is that before it started the GSC ppl came into the cinemas to like shoo ppl who were under-18!and i was freaking out!!it was seriously more horrifying than the movie itself. hehe.

after that, went for moral tuition.i seriously see no point in it but as the days go by, it's getting more fun and nonsensical..but anyways..it's really enjoyable :) i have so much more to say! but i think this post is too long alredi..hehe and it's 2!! god..gotta wake up early tomorrow..soooo bye! till then :)

2006-03-09T00:31:00.000-08:00

going to school today just made my day. although having 3 hrs of sleep killed me off during the first period, everything was just great. i hate plants! haha random i know. it's just because their cells are soooo weird..parenchyma, collenchyma..mesophyll..hate memorizing those names. as you would've guessed, yes we learnt about the transport system in plants during bio today. bummer. kinda happy i scored 44/50 for bio paper 1! whee...achievement! although i am pretty sure my paper 2 and 3 will pull me down..but for now..i'll just brag while i can ;) fyi, joyce has always been one of the lowest for bio be it paper 1, 2 or 3. so highest this time can throw anyone off their seats.

quite disappointed with my history marks although it was really expected already. just tht no one wanted to trust me when i said that i seriously screwed my essays up. now everything's proven! sigh..nothing to be proud of. scored a pathetic 68%. besides that, everything else was alrite, BM class was full of nonsense. like more than usual. just imagine.

ms tye's in penang..hope she's doing alright. everyone's been asking about my grandfather. truth is..he's alrite but not REALLy alrite at the same time. being 94, you can't say he is perfectly okay..you get wht i mean? anytime, anything can just happen. all i can do is hope for it to not happen so soon. funerals suck. everyone just tears apart and you hear cries of crunched-hearted people. it really is something to NOT look forward to at all times.

few days ago, silly joyce thought she had killed her ipod due to computer corruption. but today..she found out it was actually low on battery power!! pfft. i need sleep. toodles! :)

2006-03-08T11:12:00.000-08:00

Life's as dull as it ever could get. Everyday is just a brand new day with nothing to look forward to, but at the same time, glad that God has given me another day to indulge in the wonders of life...which by the way isn't very great rite now.

I'm so tired of people saying things but contradicting the things they say through how they act. It's just REALLY frustrating. One minute they can be all happy and the next thing you know they're all moody-fied. Just trying to understand the feelings of one soul is already a burden..try imagining ten other souls? You try to make everyone happy but everything you do just doesn't seem enough. Everything falls apart but no one seems to care to piece them back. They say your smile makes them happy but do they mean it? They say it, but somehow their body language simply don't portray it. Talk about lies..sometimes it's just best to let it all go and not think about it. As they say, life's a one way journey, so never turn back. Everything is easier said than done.

You try your best to please them in every way that you are capable of..but is anything changing for the better? Is ignorance all there is to be blamed? Each and every day, you try to figure things out, hoping to find a solution. But if they just sit there and wait for you to patch things, nothing changes. Nothing does and nothing will. They know that it takes two to tango but they can't help but be ignorant. Perhaps you are thinking too much but that's because you care.

After all that has been said, you are drowning deeper and deeper into the water, though you r still hanging on because you have faith that one day, by some miracle, things would be back to the way they were.

when life sucks, nothing could be worse

2006-02-15T07:28:00.000-08:00

few days back i was feeling good, happy and not too overworked. today however i feel like shit. or rather a whole lot of shit fell upon me. perhaps if i was ignorant i wouldn't be feeling this way. but i just can't take it. i feel betrayed cause someone backstabbed me. worse, i've been lied to after that. and after all this years you're supposed to be my friend for god's sake!

if you think i'm not responsible, tell it to my face. you don't have to go round talking bout it alrite? and when i've found out bout wht u said..pls don't come tell me tht it was only a coverup. i'm nobody's fool. it only hurts more if you do that..well at least tht's wht normal ppl would feel. perhaps you're too insensitive to think about me. suit yourself. as i said, come tell it to me if you feel tht i'm being irresponsible..we're matured ppl and we know how to change. but if you don't tell me in wht way i wouldn't know. secondly..if you STILL think i'm not good enough for you...don't ask me to do anything for you k? i'm sure you're smart enough to find someone else to do ur job for you. after all, i would be better off without you.

shit happens. you take it and then leave it. i knoe tht. and i hate it. just hate the fact tht you were suppose to be my good friend. you disappoint me. because of you, my whole day has been ruined. i have absolutely zero mood to do anything, be it studying..nor wtv else. i don't even know why i care..but i do. for obvious reasons..you're suppose to be my FRIEND! goddamit. screw it, screw everything and most of all screw you. i hope you're happy now. whereas i, would be burying myself under pillows tonight. i couldn't thank you enough

Simply screwed

2006-02-07T05:26:00.000-08:00

hello!! its been so long. i had an amazing CNY with wonderful cousins of mine. we went South then all the way North and everything was just GREAT. everything fell right into place. every moment just full of fun and joy.

for now though, life just isn't working out too well. i have SOOO much work piled up in front of me but yet i can't bear the thought of not blogging about how stressed and screwed i really feel right now. i need time and space..i can hardly breathe! would everything just leave my mind?? first of all...exam's been brought forward like seriously seriously early this yr. it's called MID SEMESTER EXAMINATIONS so wht the heck is it doing in FEBRUARY??? we had BARELY started the semester and they just had to reschedule the exam...like wtf.. thats in two week's time!! PLUS we haven't been told wht to study. all this just because of some swimming competition tht the school wants students to take part in. Sports before academics?? Marvellous. great job. go on doing wht u do best

secondly..taking part in the MSSKL squash competition which is next tuesday just makes eveything worse. doesn't help at all. tht would mean missing classes right before exams..everything is so chaotic rite now! i feel as though i'm in this big mess trying to untangle myself from all the strings attached but here i am feeling as helpless as ever. i have to say it's my own fault i got into this mess...why did i choose to take part in all these? i feel like backing out but unfortch i'm the captain. a lousy one i must say...i haven't had any practices for the competition...there's seriously no spare time at all! so sorry. and i've been sleeping past 1 everynite. GOD.. everything is so not right at this moment. it's so sickening!! i feel like burying myself in a hole so that i could be left alone and do my own stuff. but nooo...everything's been decided and all i have to do is follow through..*sigh*

i know you're muttering that i should manage my time. easier said than done! well instead of wasting more time, i shall be good and do some work. have to learn to pick up the pace and stop procrastinating cause no matter what in the end it all falls down to the question of who's to be blamed. what's your say? me of course :(

*picking up the pieces..*

GONG XI FA CAI!

2006-01-27T19:05:00.000-08:00

hey all!! im so glad tht there's a one week break from school! time to catch up with everything. anyway i'm gonna make this short cause i'll be leaving to johore soon and i haven't packed! in fact, i'll end it here! :) happy chinese new yr!

bye gemz! take care in aussie :)

waiting for a better tomorrow

2006-01-21T03:55:00.000-08:00

it's been the 3rd week of school now and everything is still the same! still have a massive unbelievable pile of unfinished work which is seriously overdued but heck! weekends here so all's good! or not. i love the weekends! every weekday when i'm really stressed up i'll go "oh i'll do this during the weekends" and when the weekends come...i feel exhausted and just forget about everything. more like pretend to forget :) typical. it's human nature! don't blame me..blame my genes :)

anyway for those of you who don't know..li zhen's leaving to aussie today!! more like now.. that crazy girl. who laughs at everything..worst than me! :) but she's really sweet and nice. gonna miss her loads. bye li zhen!! who is a fellow seladang-er by the way :)

sayonara!! :(

by the way today a bunch of us went for an interact quiz. i thought it was objective but it was SUBJECTIVE!! imagine tht.. craziness. but it was quite okay..not too bad. two groups from cempaka went to finals. but sadly we only managed to get 4th and 5th place! it was a fun experience tho'. there's treasure hunting tomorrow. i regret not wanting to join cause suddenly somehow i have this urge to join now. and it's too late!! oh well :) hope you guys have fun!

team J.A.S! :)

they got this..

n we won dirty interact bags for lucky draws! trust me, they really are filthy. there are like spots of white paint stains on the back of it..

that was bout the quiz. on another note..tuition today got me so high. practically because of one word. "lambda" pronounced as lamda. like wht kinda word is tht rite?? if you knoe hokkien...u would knoe why tht word made me so crazy. it sounds like some word in hokkien..think!! i ain't no pervert but seriously i couldnt stand it when my tuition teacher a.k.a mr tan kept repeating that word. it just sounded soooo wrong!! and there was shen jin sitting next to me who was just making matters worst! kept laughing like maniacs.

i'm gonna make a move now. can't wait till i have like ZERO homework left.

is nothing really impossible? *food for thought*

back to r-e-a-l-i-t-y

2006-01-12T04:32:00.000-08:00

this is THE life. truckloads of homework piling up in front of me, cramming for time, being around nutsy friends, laughing till u drop dead...tell me about it! after a what seemed like a perfect holiday, it's finally back to reality..

really been a while since i last updated. so many things had happened. but my..where do i start? perhaps you're waiting for me to tell you more about how my holiday in NY and Canada went. although it was just a week ago..it sure does seem like a long long time ago. and thus, i'm too lazy to blog about how it went. hehe. altho i have to say for the last time..NEW YORK IS AWESOME! there you go. everything summarized into a pathetic 4 words phrase :) i actually wanted to post pics up and all...but right now it would be really time-consuming cause it seems like since i came back i've been always trying to find time. bleh.

sometimes i wish i could control my life with a remote. just a basic one would do. one with the pause, start, fast-forward and rewind button would do. of course a "stop" button would be unnecessary. lol. wouldn't it be great? to just pause your life where you want to cherish moments or rewind so that you could go back to the times where you were having the time of your life..? is that too much to ask for??

anyways..school's been pretty hectic. on the first day, i was forced to take the bio diagnostic test. let's do some maths. if joyce + bio test = disaster...what would you get if joyce-who-didn't-touch bio-for-two-months + bio test be equivalent to?? *volcano erupts* so keep that in mind. i suck in bio! but i swear i'm gonna start revising soon..hopefully! as i was marking my test..siew may looked at me and said "joyce, are you sure we're not gonna drop bio?" lol. no dropping! whatever it is, it's always worth a try :) or so i hope.

oh yea.. a very belated happy new year's to all!! farewell to 2005.

here's to a new beginning.

currently in new york city :)

2005-12-25T20:31:00.000-08:00

woohoo! i'm here! after a ten-hour-butt-aching bus ride, i'm finally in the famous big apple! but it was okay. slept the whole way thru altho i had to wake up for immigration checks and all that. reached NY around 10am, 25th december. first impression? NY is a concrete jungle! everywhere u look u see buildings...buildings..and MORE buildings. and mind me are they REALLLY sky scrapers. i expected x'mas decors on the streets but there weren't many. thinking of which..i dont think i saw any! even in toronto..there wasn't any "wow-like" decoration. even s'pore had way nicer decorations than these two cities. ironic isn't it? nontheless i'm having a great time! hard to believe that it has already been about 2 weeks away from home. time really flies!! how many of us already know that..yet again it's being said over and over again :)

altho NY doesnt have x'mas decorations, timesquare is really awesome!! i guess because it's the heart of town. the lightings are all so pretty! and big huge television screens screening adverts!! the weather was horrible though. it kept drizzling the whole day. a wet christmas i would call it. so couldn't do much today and shops were all close.was looking forward to at least catch a glimpse of the oh-so-famous statue of liberty but all i saw was BUILDINGS. i felt as if i was like in legoland or something. haha. and because of the crazy weather...didn't do much today.

so there's a lil update on my holiday and merry belated christmas to u guys back there! :) *muackxx*

ps: i went snowboarding instead of skiing and i'll update bout it later with pics! so much to say but i'll keep it to later :)

screw the title, my mind's blank :)

2005-12-19T15:54:00.000-08:00

i'm now in a computer lab in my sis uni. it's so scary! theres no one here...and the hallway is empty..*obviously* cause its 8 pm. she's sitting for an exam in another building block. god bless her! i came all the way down just to teman her for 2 hrs. why do i even let her do this to me!! i'm nice so i shan't complain :) altho' it's not bad being here though. the connection is like phwoar!!!! crazy fast, u can't imagine.

so what has joyce been doing these few days in Canada? you ask. and you wouldnt guess it..so let me spill the beans. playing neopets!! for three days now. haha. it's so fun!! the games just gets you hooked and i've even made my sister hooked to neopets! ahaks! and she said neopets was dumb. of course i hadn't been only playing neopets! tht WOULD be dumb. we went for another movie marathon. a sneaky one of course...watched 3 movies for just 1 ticket. all REALLLY long movies. first was king kong..then harry potter...and MEMOIRS of a geisha!! whee..i know it's not gonna be out in m'sia until jan so i'm glad i've watched it! whereas you guys..have fun waiting :) ok ok..i'm being an ass..you noe i didnt mean tht.

we were watching the movies from 4 till 1! craziness...was quite tiring. apparently harry potter was censored in m'sia but when i watched it again here...it was exactly the same thing!! what a waste of time. but still...i was mainly wanting to watch king kong and the memoirs so yep...had to watch hp. king kong was SOOO good!! at first i didn't wanna watch it..but when i saw tht the director was Peter Jackson..i SOOOOO had to watch it. obviously..cause the trilogy of LOTR was superb! altho king kong was 3 hrs..some might say it's draggy but i thought every second of it was brilliant! not even a boring moment. and for the record..no..i'm not exagerrating :)

the memoirs was alrite. i found it quite slow but nevertheless great. perhaps a bit overrated. but still good. i don't know. you watch..and u tell me! i still have an hour left before my sis finishes her exam. i'm gonna get back to playing neopets now :)

tomorrow's agenda? skiing or snowboarding! whee! so excited eventho i know i'm gonna get really bruised :) bye! *muackxx*

for the watermelon lovers X)

2005-12-15T05:25:00.000-08:00

this post has nothing to do with watermelons. it's just the colour silly! :) anyway.. i thought narnia was the BOMB!! it was sooo good!! i was practically staring at the cinema screen the whole while not wanting to move my head an inch. haven't watched a movie with that much attention span before. it was REALY good. everything was just fantastic and it felt real like as if it wasn't only a fairy-tale. gogogo watch it! totally recommended by someone who normally takes lil naps during movies a.k.a me :)

i watched another show after narnia. me and my sis snuck into the other cinemas. well.the ticket was 12 cad! multiply that by 3.3 and you get thirty odd ringgit. imagine gold-class!! gah! so we had to watch at LEAST 2 movies.. hehe. the next show was "Walk the Line" which i doubt you guys heard of it. it stars Reese Witherspoon and it's about a biography on Johnny Cash which i did not know who it was until the movie was over. he's some singer during the Elvis era. the movie was quite good and i was interested only because there was Reese witherspoon..so yep..she kept me watching. heh. later, we wanted to sneak into the Harry potter cinema cause my sister hasn't watched it and i wanna watch it again cause apparently it was censored. why on earth would anyone want to censor HP?!? *nutheads* we didn't have any luck though cause there wasn't any more shows to watch during that time so we went home. was quite satisfying though..two movies..what do you think? :)

on another note yesterday we went book-shopping! ahha. yep..the books there were on cut-down prices and they were really good deals! we got the harry potter and the half blood prince for only 24 cad! tht's 80 ringgit! i hope MPH is not having a huge sale now..or not 24 cad wouldn't seem like a good deal after all. hehe.

anyways that's bout it. i have to walk downtown by myself later cause my sis just left for her exam. an hour walk! but it's okay kinda gotten used to it already..i've walked there and back b4. trust me when it's winter you can hardly feel ur legs! so an hour walk is really nothing altho when u get back u feel the aches and pain. i hope my sis doesn't read this otherwise i would be walking everywhere from now on *grrrrr* she's evil alrite

ps : my nose still bleeds everyday. i reckon i've lost a lot of blood :(
pps: i hope i didn't kill your liking for watermelons cause the colours didn't turn out the way i imagined it would. my bad. *peace* hehe

and for the love of God i'm out! :) *muackxx*

the air is so dry cough

2005-12-12T08:39:00.000-08:00

it's so dry here! compared to the humidity in m'sia. my nose bled for 3 consecutive days! and it bled at 3 am last nite. the blood just practically ran down my nose. its so ik-ky. anyways..just had the urge to blog. whee! so i've been here for about 4 days now and it's great! i love it when i wake up in the morning and peek out the window n everything is superbly white, covered with snow! such a beauuutiful sight! and it happens everyday! ><

well let' see..two days' ago, my sis and i decided to go downtown. she didn't wanna take the subway. so we walked..and it's not a normal walk k..it was an hour plus walk just to get there! nevertheless for shopping every girl would :) so yes we walked and as we were nearby we stopped at Amato. a pizza place! the pizza there was so yummie!! never knew pizzas could taste THAT good. it isn't the best best i'm sure but compared to m'sia? u get the picture :) anyway after eating i felt so good and was ready to walk again. unfortch..when we reached Eaton Centre (a shopping mall) i was too tired to shop!! argh..all the way there and the interest was gone down the drain. but well i did do a lil window shopping.

yesterday we walked down the streets to get a carrot cake. delicious! on the way down it was snowing and it was my first time tht i realise snowflakes are so pretty!! they came down in really nice shapes. those snowflakes like the ones we always see in cartoon pics and all. i thought they were just imaginary shapes but no!! it was real!! it does snow in those kinda shapes!! whee!! im so stupid to have not known this earlier :) forgive me for my ignorance..but it's amAzing! haha i wanted to get a picture of them but they melt really fast. snow-duh! ahaha oh well..better luck next time. i'm sure there's more to come. haha.

okie tht's bout it. i took a few pics but i havent uploaded them yet. will do soon. much love from across the world :)

so long...farewell!

2005-12-07T01:36:00.000-08:00

do not bid me farewell just yet..it's actually for the 1 ringgit coins! :) yeap. bye bye to those heavy dirty gold look-a-like coins.

i had the perfect sleep last night. basically because i had a realllllly long and deep one. woke up at 1.45pm :) it's been a long time since i had a nice sleep. i'm pretty sure i wouldn't be able to sleep tonight though..prolly be too excited or..be too busy tryin to think what would happen tomorrow.

by the way i actually miss blogging in xanga because here i can't put any nice smileys!! :( makes my blog so dull..but oh well. alrite this is weird but i've ran out of words to say. my phone has roaming so if theres an emergency or anything..just give me a beep! :) a msg will do. i don't think i'll be picking up any calls cause it's overpriced!! hehe.. and for now...so long! farewell to me. tahz! *muackxxx*

time is closing up on me

2005-12-06T03:09:00.000-08:00

just one more day..and i would be gone for a month! at first it didn't occur to me..one month? *alrite it's JUST one month * tht's what i thought. but now it's starting to spring to me...A MONTH across the world??? phwoar..what was i thinking?! sure u'll be thinking it's great fun..but only time will tell. plus it's gonna be Freezing!! a month..it's like wow.. sorry. i'm just freaking out. *what if* i feel so alone in the 20-odd hrs journey on the plane? *what if* i get so sick of the weather there and i wish i could come back here? *what if*what if*what if* there are just too many. plus the fact tht i'm gonna miss my LAST first day of school isn't helping either. i just feel so LOW..u knoe?? i think it's PMS. lol

well...what can i say? i'll only know once i get there..and i really hope i do get there eventually.. cause for those of you who r still wondering? yes i'm flying to canada alone. and i mean ALONE alone. and i've never done this before. the best i've done travelling abroad alone was when i took a bus down to Singapore..that was a bus..and it was singapore..just 5 hours. no biggie.

i've started packing my stuff of course..just a few more things which i'm still thinking hard how i'm gonna fit it in my luggage. oh on another note..i watched harry potter yesterday! finally. haha. it was fun! but a tad bit jumpy altho for someone who had never read any of the HP books a.k.a me :) the movie was understandable although it was jumpy..

what i really regret is not maximising my holiday period. i wish i could start off november again..and put all the time i have to FULL use. i just never learn from mistakes you knoe? it's irritating..really :)

hmm..my new year's resolution? definitely to try resolute my abandoned previous yr's resolutions. tht is..to NOT procrastinate. i'll see how far i can go with that :) for now..i guess this is my last goodbye and i'll see you back in a month! can't wait!
you guys..joyce is gonna miss u LOADS *sob* take care :) *muackxx*

new phone! X)

2005-12-03T23:04:00.000-08:00

whee! yep..joyce has her new phone :) (same number) my brother brought it back for me yesterday..i love my brother! tht's wat family is for..and yes i'm pampered. so what? :) yay..check it out :)

i think its totally fabulous! what do YOU think? lol. okay enough bout the phone. another three more days in malaysia and i'd be off to Canada! anyway...i downloaded another korean drama called Phoenix. i watched the first episode and it seems interesting..but the downside is tht from episode 2 onwards..there are no subs! so does anyone happen to have this series? care to lend it to me? pretty please? lol. yes i'm a korean drama addict. it's fun! but can be really draggy and sappy. but heck..i still love wasting my time on it :)

the past few days, i've been watching tv..online-ing...buying stuff for my sis in Canada and pretty much doing the usual. nothing much to blog about. i'm gonna watch harry potter tomorrow! haha. yes i know all of you have watched it..but better late than never! :) fyi people, i've never read any of the HP books. yep big surprise..but i'm not really into reading books although sometimes i do read. i'm more into visual stuff..like..KORean Drama's and soapS! yea. haha. i guess this is pretty much it for today. have fun and have a good day y'all :) * muackxx*

6 more days and counting!

2005-11-30T22:21:00.000-08:00

hellooo!! i didn't update for two days cause there was nothing much to blog about..and today is another of one of those days :) but anyhoos...this post is gonna be random. hmm let's see. oh! on another note..i finally found a program tht could fit 4 wintersonata episodes on a DVD!! (video format..not data disc) yay!! finally :) so happy. although it takes forever..but i'm still overjoyed!
i have an idea! i'm gonna put up really really random pics tht are in my comp..well they say a picture speaks a thousand words, so here u go!

alrite this picture has a lil story behind it. see i went for a farm trip and we visited an orchard which gave me a bad impression on orchards. haha. anyway, you know how professional photographers always take upclose pics? yea..i was trying to do that..but i didn't notice i took this ugly flower into experiment. haha. and it didn't turn up very well..actually it's quite bad rite? no focus at all hehe

i don't know whether it's just me..but somehow this pic makes me look like one of them *a bloody cow* haha :)

*ggrrrr* no one gets hold of my oreo mcflurry! (this was so candid..don't ask me what i was doing.lol)

beatrice's first try on the tarzan rope and..2nd try! still not good enough X) i don't wanna put up my tries...u don't have the privilege to view them. its just too embarassing. haha. btw..can u spot the lamoo (yun)?
wei pin! we always have funny pictures of him :)
sarah's party! this is so depressing..i spent so long to make this collage and it looks THIS tiny. sigh.oh well.
hope u had fun! i cant believe i spent so much time jus to upload these pics..haha..anyways..this is it for now. i need a break from the computer. bye! *muackx*

back! and soon on the run again..

2005-11-28T05:19:00.000-08:00

holla!! i'm back from the conference. *sigh* i lost my innostream phone!! which is not even a year old..sad sad..sniff. and the thing is..i don't know exactly when..and how i lost it. i must've dropped it..sheesh. so careless i know. anyways..about the conference..wht can i say? as a whole, well, it was bittersweet! yep..the perfect word to describe how my weekend went. it started off bitter of course b'cuz i lost my hp on the very first day!! in fact like 1-2 hours after i reached..

so other than tht, well the lectures..i only found two interesting. the rest were oh-so-boring. i even slept through some of them. haha. but i guess the conference was a good exposure for me to experince the college lifestyle cause they had lectures in real lecture halls..pretty cool. besides tht..i met loads of ppl whom i now have forgotten their names..whoops.hehe. although i DO remember some of the ones whom i was closed with :)

Pics from the Interact Conference:

margaret-barbra-jane-sally! figure it out ;)

these two silly cows were being vain with my camera

melissa...i think tht was her name :) from ELC international school

the dark yellow groupies :)

ishani who's a hartamas-sian :)

elizabeth and i with a bunch of vi guys

wow..i just counted the days i have left until i'm off to canada and NY! its like 9 more days! including today..tht would mean from tomorrow onwards..8 more days! craziness. i'll be off for a whole month in a place where it would be SUPERBLY cold as in negative degrees..hope i won't be frozen :) oh a reminder..do not contact me on my hp for now cause u wouldn't be able to. so yep..i'll keep u guys updated! no worries :) as for now..bye! *muacks*

Time now is > 2 am

2005-11-24T09:58:00.000-08:00

i really should be sleeping! i have to get up at 7 something tomorrow and here i am with my hands at the keyboard and eyes strictly focused at the monitor plus an aching back. truth is..i'm basically doing nothing! it's like an online addiction syndrome if there's such a thing. it could be called the OAS. just browsing through the net aimlessly.very very bad way of maximising time..anyways..i found something interesting on google!

haha i bet u didn't see this coming! but isn't it cool? if dogs could *really* read. call me lame..but let's ponder upon the *if only's* :)

i think i really have to go to bed now. i'm gonna force myself before i start sleeping throughout the lectures tomorrow. teehee. will be back in 3 days time..and for now..tahS!

Exhausted

2005-11-24T05:22:00.000-08:00

i'm back for a few hours! and then i'm off to nilai for the conference thingy. i just read the program..the first lecture is "Do Not Be Afraid to Speak English". omg!! wht's this!??! n then the next..bout family values..and there's one about biodiversity conservation. sounds so bio-ish.yucks. haha. anyhow..it's too late to NOT go now. and who knows? it MIGHT be fun. might..i repeat. *disaster* :)

so..singapore was great fun! the bus ride there alone was nice too! especially cause it was at night..so it was like very free and easy. not scary at all. come to think of it i might want to go to s'pore more often! my bro has this new place and its so convenient to move about from there. plus they alredi started on X'mas decorations in Orchard Rd. a month early! can u imagine? really really beautiful lightings in the heart of town. take a look at these pics!

me..lil brian who's no longer a babyboy now and my cous ling wee :) all looking quite retarded except brian..hehe

after shopping with aunty kwee ying and mummy

X'mas decorations (MnM's!) on a shopping centre in Orchard Rd

okay..tht's bout s'pore. i have something more interesting to blab on about. tabloids! i went on yahoo and a piece about Jessica Simpson and Nick Lachey splitting made headlines. wow! guess there'll be no more airing of Newlyweds. although they're not really *newly* weds. hehe. it's funny how celebrities always break off so easily..anyway i shall not elaborate further cause i don't wanna be called a paparazzi :) for more info..go to http://et.tv.yahoo.com/celebrities/13191/

alrite i have to go pack my bags for the next three days. till then! toodles :D

s'pore here i come!

2005-11-18T21:16:00.000-08:00

well hello there! i'm off to s'pore today. a day earlier than expected. there's no more tickets for tomorrow so i had to go today instead..and i'll be going straight from tuition which means tht i'll be carrying a travelling bag to tuition. haha. oh well. next week's gonna be really busy for me but it'll be fun! i'll be coming back on thursday night from s'pore and then the next day, friday, i'd be off to nilai, negeri sembilan for a District Interact Conference.

the DIC sounds like a H-U-G-E event and i've never really been to HUGe event b4..so..yep we'll see! and my trip to canada and NY is confirmed! got all my visas done and soon need to get on to packing my baggage. i'll be there for a whole month! i can't imagine wht it'd be like...only time will tell..hehe. i'm leaving on the 8th which is bout 2 and a half weeks away i think. and time flies so i guess i'll be there pretty soon! :)

anyhoos..this is just a short update about where i'll be and when..so till then! cya ppl. muackx!

bye bye xanga! hello blogspot! :)

2005-11-18T09:32:00.000-08:00

hey ppl! so this is my new blog site..and i suppose from now on..my xanga is gonna be abandoned. this is not fully "furnished" yet though. sorry if you find my bg too colourful or hurtful for ur eyes. as a matter of fact..i love stripes! and i customized the bg myself. haha ok ok..it was just done in paint..but still..cool rite?? :) thank you! lol

yesterday was li zhen's party at courtyard garden. it reminded me of one of those "secret" garden kinda thing cause it was quite secluded. the food was REALLY REALLY good. it was a 4 course meal and every course was just getting better and better. and of course at the end there was the cake. and again..some random pics taken at her party :)

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it's water pouring into a HUGe pot

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i'm too lazy to upload the rest..for more pics..log on to > http://huieng.blogspot.com.

tomorrow mummy dearest is going to malacca which leaves me at home alone for a night. and i'm off to s'pore the next day! all by myself in a bus for 5 whole hours. it might not be so bad though cause i'll prolly sleep through the entire journey. god its 2 am! i'll be back tomorrow..till then! toodles :)

I miSS School :(

2005-11-16T07:27:00.000-08:00

hello there! i feel like blogging but then again..i don't feel like blogging. but my urge to blog is more than my urge to not wanna blog..so here i am blogging..trying to not be too draggy so tht i won't bore u off but i think i'm failing. actually i just feel like rambling so i figured i'd do it here! after all..tht's wht a blog is for.

i'll start off with yesterday! yesterday i was really on a shopping spree! and now i'm broke. went out with the lamoo (in joyce's language, lamoo means lame..and lame means yun-ni) i bought two tops..a jacket..two bags..a cargo-like pants and wait...thts all! haha it doesn't seem tht much but it is by far the most i've bought in a day. don't tell my mummy..she'd kill me. i sure hope she doesn't read my blog..nah..she's too busy for her lil daughter.

today was a stay-home day but i have no complains cause i think i worked out my legs yesterday. oh..and my tickets to Canada are confirmed! yipee! and i'm going to the Big Apple!! haha. yea..will be abroad for a month. and i'm gonna travel alone..and my mummy doesnt wanna send me to the airport!! she asked me to take the train from KL sentral to KLIA...omg..my mummy loves me SOOOO much. haha but i guess in a way its cool cause she has so much faith in me.

i don't know bout you but i LURVE blogs with pictures..so i'm gonna post up some random pics. so enjoy!

2005-11-07T07:23:00.000-08:00

okay so the start of november although a.k.a happy holidays isn't really wht i was looking forward to. it has really been a dull start for this month. with absolutely nothing to do..well okay im exaggerating a lil but these past few days i have been lying in bed tucked in and watching korean soaps and desperate housewives. not very ideal for a holiday..but it's alright.

today was no exception. i had to get up extremely early..around 7 something (bare in mind..holiday!!) yea..and had to go see the doctor about my eye problem. yes tht gross swollen eye part of mine which had been there for 2 months plus now. when i arrived at the clinic, i was only scared about one thing...the hope of not having the doctor touch tht part of my eye..because it causes bad irritation. sure enough, the first thing she said to me.. "good morning, oh..your eye is bad! looks like i'm going to have to prick tht little swollen ball in ur eye to get rid of the puss" n then she walks away and comes back with a little syringe like looking thing aiming it to lower lid. ahh..the horror. n tht wasn't it..she took two cotton buds and kept pressing on tht swollen spot..to clear away the puss..and soon it bled. god..u can just imagine the agony. glad it's over..it looks like it's on it's way to recovery so yay? haha alright.

okay so besides tht bad bits...here comes the goodie! i got a new camera yesterday! canon..ixus 55. just for my canada and new york trip. the trip which i'm on hold for!! damn...really really hope i can get the tickets..soon!! argh...please please pleaseeee..i don't wanna be stuck here for another whole month! tht would be disastrious..

so practically i have just been lazing around bring a useless slug. haha and tht's bout it..will keep u updated soon! bye!

2005-10-16T07:21:00.000-07:00

finally!! exams r over! yay! haha...which means the end of form 4! yippee stress-free! for now tht is..cause next yr..we're looking towards form 5. sigh..i really envy the primary kids. i wish i could wind back the hands of the clock and be back there again. *sob* anyway...school's gonna end soon...like oct 28th. crazy early...the end of our so called "honeymoon year" and then there'll be like 2 crazy long months of holidays which i'll be going to canada! but only in december..and maybe new york too. i don't have much enthusiasm bout it though..don't knoe why. maybe not YET.. ehhe

so..i've been watching this korean drama called "beautiful days" which is SOOO addictive.. all korean soaps are jus addictive. it could probably be worse than drugs. haha. so anyways..i have like so many other shows to watch too... desperate housewives..OC and Lost! and so many movies to catch up with!

let's see wht else..oh today i was supposed to have dinner at the italian restaurant at one bangsar called Venti something. hehe..but instead...it was fully booked! and we ate at bangsar seafood restaurant instead...sigh...so saddening. but nevertheless, the food was quite nice and i ate fried durian!! it was soo good!! FRIED DURIAN can u believe it? ahha! so yummie.
oh crap..its 12.25am! got school tomorrow...better get going. till then!

2005-09-24T07:15:00.000-07:00

put a truckload of schoolwork, final year examinations and the need for time altogether and you get a stressed up Joyce! argh...stress stress stress....on a so called honeymoon year! stress just sucks! as always...i have so much to do but so lil time! i guess i'll never learn from my mistakes..i'll always end up studying last minute although i always make promises to myself oh well...i'm so bummed.

so..yesterday i finally got installed! whee! love the tie..installation night was...hmm..bittersweet! the bitter...the fact tht we had to stand up for wht seemed to be like a whole day to me!! backache..leg cramps..u name it. the sweet?? it's pretty obvious...we got installed!! school's been fine...i seriously need to work on time management...i wish i could have all the time in the world!! and tht perhaps the world could stop and wait for me..hehe..then i wouldn't always be fighting for time!

crazy thoughts...better stop here. for those of you sitting for PMR..all the best of luck! oh yea happy sweet sixteenth Sarah!! although i knoe you wouldn't come here..i'm not sure if anyone visits this site anymore. ahha..anyways..yep thts it! im out!

2005-08-29T07:08:00.000-07:00

Hey ppl!! haha...it's been a LONG LONG TIME!! seriously long, no doubt. it seems like ppl only visits my blog when it is dead...haha.weird but true. or perhaps, it is not so hmm..so much has happen throughout my whole laziness period of time. i don't knoe where to start! haha. but one thing's for sure..this year passed really really superbly fast. did anyone notice? or is it just me?
so let's see.. finals are right around the corner..eventhough we just finished 2nd mid-sem. damn..exam stress never ends and never will. in another point of view i kinda like the idea of exams cause it's the only tht would get me to my books okok enough bout exams.

so well, these few days i've been going for Merdeka parade practices which were a total waste of time and a bad exposure in the sun! craziness...just for a 10 minute thing we practically burn in the sun for 5 hours. and worst thing is..it was all for nothing! cause now they wanna have a new formation. great..so all that for nothing. BUT in return, for my presence during those practices, i get an oversized t-shirt and an oversized tracksuit the tracksuit is SOOO oversized that it's just weird. i seriously don't knoe how to wear it..i look like some ape or something.NOT funny.

okay..looks like this entry is getting overloaded. the rest shall remain in point form

- platinum camp ( really wanted to go for it but NOOO mum wouldn't let..oh my god..this sounds like shu ling. ehehe.but i've gotten over the whole platinum thing alredi)
- sis is going back this wednesday. this leaves me and my mum and my dog at home. lonely. VERY lonely
crap. i knoe i have a lot more to say...but my mind is blank now. hehe. i'll get back to it hope this bloggin mood would continue for at least a few more weeks. for now..byebye!